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Up Ahead (Ryn #1) (demo)
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"Up Ahead"
(Ryn #1)
From "The Muse Tree (Demos)"
Julean and the Rai (as Julian Rai)
Copyright 2003 Julian D. Rai (BMI)
VERSE I
Woke at 5 am, now it's 6 in the morning
Huddled like 7 heads hanging, walking
Hawaii was calling out to Ryn --
Who was the master of the task at hand,
The moving hand; the
Sleight-of-hand that was the Time.
VERSE II
So we took those moments, that were
Creased, and were folded, held them in
Palms that were sweating; and forgetting.
His lover Josie'd run away.
She turned 16 that day ...
and I promised Ryn that I'd look after her.
But I couldn't find her sometime afterward.
PRE-CHORUS !
And with that amulet I gave you
I didn't expect that it would save you, man
No; it was just made of the stuff
that made you, Ryn.
VERSE III
Light had a tendency to curve in this town.
And it'd wrapped the dawn around us, halfway down...
I turned to look at you as you watched the ground ...
Your eyes goodbye-ing to the pavement.
VERSE IV
To most of us you were the "Independent One".
First one to leave the classroom; first one to strike out on your own.
And now you're the first of us to travel on...
But I could tell that you were unfamiliar
With permanently stepping out of childhoood.
PRE-CHORUS II
And on that paper that I gave you
About the changes that surround you, man ...
I swear I wouldn't ever wish that upon you --
CHORUS
And Up Ahead
There's a bus waiting to take you Home.
And so the six of us walked back Alone.
Just as the tendrils of the dawn
Shone on us all ...
We watched the patterns of our Lives
Fall down.
And with this feeling that the Change
Has gotta' come ...
The Walk Back was not an
Easy One.
BRIDGE
Hey; we were all handshakes and machismo
Me ripping pages from my notebook
The necklace I'd worn since I met you
I felt driven to present you
And once the bus was in the distance
No one here has seen you since
Most of us, no longer friends
We knew we might be seperated
What we were all thinking, no one said it
But suddenly our lives were 'complicated'.
VERSE V
We herded back past where the city lie
Past all the gravel trucks and traffic lights
Past all the busy, bustling passers-by
No one seemed to notice you were missing.
VERSE VI
Soon, thereafter we all parted ways
And in walked the Summer, where the Troubles came
But I walked stubbornly on, anyway
Just so long as I was moving
PRE-CHORUS III
Seems like everyone in Dayton
There's built on Apit and Hesitation
But we were the Kids of the Creation.
Lyrics and music copyright 1995, 1996, 2003 Julian D. Rai (BMI), All Rights Reserved. Recorded and mastered by Julian Rai. Additional performances by Michael Solomon (Djembe).
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Living the Dream #1
From "The Muse Tree (Demos)"
Julean and the Rai (as Julian Rai)
Copyright 2003 Julian D. Rai (BMI)
VERSE I
See I was stranded in Cincinatti
On the edge of a city grove
And I guess that's where it happened
When I suddenly decided to go ...
I was watching all the cars pass in all the choas
And folks I've never seen before
Pathos, storylines and drama
Bars, coffeehouses and stores
CHORUS I
And I said it's
Too bad I'm stuck in Ohio
Or I'd be living the dream
Never take a chance with my safety
And ruin everything
Besides, I would probably die
Of thirst, or hunger, or snow
Unless I had a grand or two
Before I go
Anyway
What would I do with my stuff?
All of my writings and memories?
But if all I could do was survive here
What kind of a life would that be?
So really, I'm dead either way --
Whether I stay, or leave
VERSE II
So I got to telling all my friends
Had to let 'em know I wouldn't be here long
By a couple of days, they sat me down
Half laughing, half concerned
Funny thing I couldn't tell
If they were talking about them, or me
And I said it's too bad because
I was gonna' seek some company.
CHORUS II
And I said: "Jules,
Too bad you're stuck in Ohio
Or you'd be living the dream
Never take a chance with your safety
And ruin everything
Besides, you would probably die
Of thirst, or hunger, or snow
Wouldn't you need a grand or two
Before you go
Anyway
What would you do with your stuff?
Your dishes, candles, VCR and TV...?
But if all we cand do is survive here
What kind of a life would that be?
So really, we're dead either way --
Whether we stay, or leave
BRIDGE
As the month goes on
I find that I regress
Back to the world of jobs
And safety nets
I keep pushing forward the date
But I 'aint leavin' yet
Started playing in bars
And smoking cigarettes
I figured that I would let myself
Do what I needed to
This was my birth town
It's gonna' be a tough move
And when I'm ready
I'll just slide out, like a silhouette
Perhaps on a greyhound --
I don't really know
It'll be alright
But I 'ain't leavin' yet ...
CHORUS III
And I said its
Too bad I'm leavin' Ohio
Too bad I'm living the dream
I'm leaving the safety
Of these familiar things
Too bad I'll probably die
Of thirst, or hunger, or snow
Too bad I'm a little broke --
I'm still gonna' go
Too bad about that little "fire"
That took out all of my belongings and things
But if you're thinkin' of leavin'
Just go with your pack and your breathin'
And maybe then, your guitar
You just go as you are.
OUT
I'm gonna' take a boat
To Liverpool
Then take on most of Europe
'Cause I know my place is over there
But I've never quite been over there
But I saw it once in a photograph
And I got this feeling in my chest
You said "You don't know,
Don't make me laugh."
So I got my bookbag and I left
And I think I can do this as I am
No need to save up all this cash
'Cause I trust the seeds of confidence
Don't believe in coincidence
You can't always explain what you know
Or how you know what you know you know
But you've got this feelin', gotta' go
'Cause this place no longer
Feels like home.
Lyrics and music copyright 1995, 1996, 2003 Julian D. Rai (BMI), All Rights Reserved.
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The Exchange #1 (demo)
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The Exchange #1
From "The Muse Tree (Demos)"
Julean and the Rai (as Julian Rai)
Copyright 2003 Julian D. Rai (BMI)
VERSE I
Could we retain
The student we exchanged?
And you can keep the one from our school --
Please let me explain
She followed me
She came down to my show
Dark haired, and stared me down
She talked first, just so you know.
VERSE II
And then later on
At the sleepover and such
With just one little touch
(We really didn't sleep that much)
And then it all came down
The kissing on the lips
All hands and pockets and hips
But there's one more thing we missed
VERSE II
So I beg you please
Please please please
Don't send her home
I mean it seems a little wrong
Not to be when nature calls
You're a good man, I can tell
Hey -- that's a nice suit
You know, I think it really looks good on you
I was told you were the man to talk to.
PRECHORUS
I don't like to sound
Like the boy who falls
But I stumble down the stairs
Every time she calls
There's a feeling in my chest
Like a lizard, who crawls
I can't eat, can't sleep
Can't think at all
Gonna' meet her downtown
At the coffeehouse
Stay still for a minute
Then we'll both sneak out
Hide out in the deepest, dark corners
Of our town
(Did you do it? Did you do it)
No I didn't but I tried...
Honestly, I was the one
Who was taken out
I didn't know what this whole
Girl thing was about
Which is why I'm sitting here
In your office, now
I'm still a little freaked out
But I gotta' find out, so
CHORUS
Please
Please could we retain
The student we exchanged?
And you can keep the one from our school ...
... we didn't like her, anyway.
BRIDGE
I can't picture her just leavin';
And me afterward, just breathin' in
The scent of her, just lingerin'
Well I just can't standing for the shoe to fall
You'd better give me something, or it's nothing at all!
PRECHORUS
I don't like to sound
Like the boy who falls
But I stumble down the stairs
Every time she calls
There's a feeling in my chest
Like a lizard, who crawls
I can't eat, can't sleep
Can't think at all
Gonna' meet her downtown
At the coffeehouse
Stay still for a minute
Then we'll both sneak out
Hide out in the deepest, dark corners
Of our town
(Did you do it? Did you do it)
No I didn't but I tried...
Honestly, I was the one
Who was taken out
I didn't know what this whole
Girl thing was about
Which is why I'm sitting here
In your office, now
I'm still a little freaked out
But I gotta' find out, so
CHORUS
Please
Please could we retain
The student we exchanged?
And you can keep the one from our school ...
... nobody liked her much, anyway.
Could we retain
The student we exchanged?
And you can keep the one from our school...
We did't like her, anyway.
And then it all came down.
Lyrics and music copyright 1995, 1996, 2003 Julian D. Rai (BMI), All Rights Reserved.
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As You Are
(In This Water #1)
From "The Muse Tree (Demos)"
Julean and the Rai (as Julian Rai)
Copyright 2003 Julian D. Rai (BMI)
VERSE I
With the highway lights making shadows on your face
I looked over at you, as you quickly turned away
The silence was its own mistake.
VERSE II
We landed and we ate beside the car
And then you stood by the waterside, egging me on
I said "I don't have a suit", you said
"Just go as you are...
Go as you are...
Just go as you are ..."
You peeled down to your underwear and bra
Dove into the water, and slipped the others off
Love, our time was a passing one.
Your mother's choice for college, no surprise
Your confident demeanor, a disguise
You've got a thousand expectations
That are shaped like your life
Shake like your life
Shaped like your life...
We were connecting every little star
Then running naked, drying off
Then shivering, back to the car
I think I'd rather leave you
As you are.
We planned to get together later on
I apologize, like I said I couldn't come
And I've looked everywhere, but I don't see you around.
Lyrics and music copyright 2003 Julian D. Rai (BMI), All Rights Reserved.
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Tall #2 (demo)
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Tall #2
From "The Muse Tree (Demos)"
Julean and the Rai (as Julian Rai)
Copyright 2003 Julian D. Rai (BMI)
VERSE I
By seventeen he'd picked it up
Everybody seemed to like his stuff
Sang with fire, wrote of love
They all said he'd be famous
Then he had to get a 'real job'
In a warehouse, South of town
The extra cash was welcome
So he laid his guitar down, and goes
"You're bound for losing
By the time you're old.
Every old loser
Tells me so.
You're bound to stagnate
Bound to fall...
Bound to pause
When we grow tall.
VERSE II
Matthew's words, like fireworks
Everybody wanted to read his stuff
Wrote until his fingers hurt
We all knew he'd be famous
But then traveled off to college
Where he'd lay awake at night
He had an appetite for knowledge
But he knew something wasn't right, however
"You're bound to shed this;
You'll outgrow this --
Even my father
Tells me so.
You're bound to college,
Bound to jobs,
Bound to family
When we grow tall."
When we grow tall.
BRIDGE
You're bound for losing
By the time you're old
Every old loser
Tells you so
You're bound to family
Bound to jobs
Bound to stagnate
When we grow tall.
VERSE III
Matthew dropped out
And moved back home
Wrote a couple plays
And put 'em on
Started up a novel
That isn't quite done
Published several
Of his poems
And guitar boy found a paying gig
Running local open mics
He says he's really in no hurry
To try to struggle, reach Big Time
He says "You've gotta' shake these
Stubborn roles.
Tell those old losers
Where to go.
Grow a pair
Drop the ball;
Or no point, when we grow
Tall."
When we grow
Tall.
Lyrics and music copyright 1999, 2003 Julian D. Rai (BMI), All Rights Reserved.
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Fifth Street Song
(Fifth Street Coffee Song #1)
From "The Muse Tree (Demos)"
Julean and the Rai (as Julian Rai)
Copyright 2003 Julian D. Rai (BMI)
(Well there was somthing about the shape of this town that kind of made it ... well ... vacuously 'home-y'. The streets littered with people I knew who had nothng to do. So I took to setting up in the old Historic Distric, as a busker, in the fall of a long year; I was trying to handle the "catastrophic discharge" of my life with as much grace, calm, and quiet -- in that I could possibly trust that some Overspirit was doing something, and I ... had no idea what it was up to.)
VERSE I
Well I'm sittin' on Fifth Street
Got my case on the line
Made about five bucks so far
Saw as ex-roommate of mine
She wants her deposit back --
That kinda' made me laugh ...
I said "I thought you snorted that."
"Now girl ...
I was supposed to watch out for you, and
Look at you now, with this
Scumbag hanging off of you --
We're all stuck
Even Ryn in Hawaii
But if you want to talk deposits, I'll
Just come by --"
CHORUS
"You know, I'm sorry.
I didn't quite make it there,
I didn't have the money
To pay the fare
Things are troubled
They're changing, and they're strange
I can't keep track of nothing these days ...
Me and my 'irresponsible ways'."
VERSE II
You know I just got evicted
The other day
And I'm staying with a friend
Of a friend of a friend of a friend of a friend
And I'm leaving in October
To tour the country
Yet I'm still here in Dayton
And I don't seem much to mind.
CHORUS
"You know, I'm sorry.
I didn't quite make it there,
I didn't have the money
To pay the fare
Things are troubled
They're changing, and they're strange
I couldn't care less, anyway ...
Me and my 'irresponsible ways'."
I can't keep track of nuthin' these days.
I know I promised
I tried the best I could
Always been honest
Well-meaning and good
I just find trouble
Just this side of the sane
I can't keep track of nuthin' these days
Me and my irresponsible --
VERSE III
--You know the thing about Fifth Street?
In the days it's a dive
In the evenings it's where all the night life
Comes alive
And these college kids don't pay you
But you know they'll ask you
"Do you know this song, or that song --
Get a job," or "go home" --
CHORUS
And when I leave
Pack up my case
Stack up the bills
And count all the change
I make-believe
I'm going home.
I can't keep track of nuthin' these days
Me and my "irresponsible ways" ...
Me and my "irresponsible ways" ...
Lyrics and music copyright 1999, 2003 Julian D. Rai (BMI), All Rights Reserved.
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God Bless Panama City #1
From "The Muse Tree (Demos)"
Julean and the Rai (as Julian Rai)
Copyright 2003 Julian D. Rai (BMI)
VERSE I
We took a trip to Florida
With the promoter from a big concert.
I suspect we were runnin' way --
(I hear that nobody got paid.)
VERSE II
We set up at St. Andrews --
Parked the Jeep and waterbikes
With a tent as big as a living room
These two weeks should be flying by soon.
VERSE III
And eventually, our campsite
Swallowed the surrounding tents
Packed with folks from all around --
Even Nina, from back home, came down.
We were like the bedouins
When everbody else moved in.
PRECHORUS
God Bless Panama City, yeah
It's oceans wrapped around our tentsides
It's sand floor crawling up our backsides
VERSE IV
Enter young Melissa:
A fiesty Alabama girl --
Her tent just down the beach from me
Honestly, at first, she bothered me.
VERSE V
Then one night she surprised me.
Caught outside, by the fire pit
I admit I was interested
When she sent her little friend to bed
VERSE VI
And I swear I don't remember
Just How we got from log to tent
Or if I said in just as many words
It so happened I was virginal...
I was only seventeen
She a year younger than me...
PRECHORUS
God Bless Panama City, yeah
It's oceans wrapped around our tentsides
It's sand floor crawling up our backsides
CHORUS
...and it went something like this:
"There's a rock under my back."
"You got your elbow on my neck."
"I'm sorry I bumped your head."
"Did you or I come yet?"
"Can we just lay here naked?"
Could have sworn I was awake, yeah
'Till me morning had taken ya'
And in the morning, I felt different.
VERSE VII
In the morn I could not find you
Apparently, your parents came
Drove you back the road towards home
On the pillow, your address and phone
VERSE VIII
And when I returned to Dayton
I think I called you once or twice
But you had a boyfriend, he proposed
And I figured that's just 'how it goes'.
But I plan on travelin'
And maybe I'll see you then.
PRECHORUS
God Bless Panama City, yeah
It's oceans wrapped around our tentsides
It's sand floor crawling up our backsides
CHORUS
...and it went something like this:
"There's a rock under my back."
"You got your elbow on my neck."
"I'm sorry I bumped your head."
"Did you or I come yet?"
"Can we just lay here naked?"
Could have sworn I was awake, yeah
'Till me morning had taken ya'
And in the morning, I felt different.
God bless Panama City, yeah.
God bless Panama City, yeah.
God bless Panama City.
God bless Panama City.
(...and it went something like this:)
God bless Panama City.
("There's a rock under my back.")
("You got your elbow on my neck.")
God bless Panama City...
("I'm sorry I bumped your head.")
("Did you or I come yet?")
God bless Panama City.
("Can we just lay here naked?")
(Could have sworn I was awake, yeah)
God bless Panama City.
('Till me morning had taken ya')
(And in the morning, I felt different.)
Oh, yeah...
Lyrics and music copyright 1996, 2003 Julian D. Rai (BMI), All Rights Reserved.
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The Sounds Outside
(The Way That Leaving Goes #1)
From "The Muse Tree (Demos)"
Julean and the Rai (as Julian Rai)
Copyright 2003 Julian D. Rai (BMI)
VERSE I
"Well, you can stay at my house,"
She said, "With no money now
You can sleep in my little girl's bedroom,
And she'll be fine, in my bed, for now.
Slide 'round the kitchen, you can
Eat all you want when you stay, and
Here's a key to the doorway --
Try to keep it down, if you come in late."
CHORUS I
("And of course if you wanted
You can come 'round to my door...")
I never caught the subtext --
Never caught on
To what exactly I was paying for
To what I was paying for
Room and board
Until I couldn't come back no more.
VERSE II
Got no food, and no money.
Going down to the 'Grind...
Score a cup of free coffee
For the 142nd time, thinking
How I plan to get liquid simply
Performing live, and I'm realizing
You can't make no money
Running local open mics...
CHORUS II
And I never expected
To be stramded on the streets here
Trying to find a bedroom
Making 60 bucks a week
Gotta' find a place to sleep, easy.
Hungrier still
As evening comes
Remembering who
I borrowed from
And the placed I've stayed
And the friends I've lost
All alone, with just
Me, guitar, and thoughts
God if I know
How this works out
Damned, if I go back
Homeward now ...
Gotta' get this all figured out...
VERSE III
Now I'm runnin' out of options
Having gone down to the bone,
Thinking about how I 'ain't been broke, or homeless
Since I left my mothers home
And here I am
Slinking up the driveway
Thinking "Lucky I got the key"
But my Mama got there first
And her smile surprised me.
CHORUS III
And outside the window
My brother groaned
As my mother said
Something 'bout Nintendo
And some upcoming test
Looks like life has carried on here
Just as if I'd never left.
Though I'm just taking a rest...
Maybe get the past year off my chest
(Sorry to bother you; I really need the couch)
Though I'm just taking a rest...
Maybe get the past year off my chest
(Sorry to bother you; I really need the couch)
Just taking a rest...
Gotta' get this last year off my chest.
Lyrics and music copyright 1996, 2003 Julian D. Rai (BMI), All Rights Reserved.
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9. |
Muse Tree #1 (demo)
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Muse Tree #1
From "The Muse Tree (Demos)"
Julean and the Rai (as Julian Rai)
Copyright 2003 Julian D. Rai (BMI)
You are only to be a tree
On which the muses come to feed.
VERSE I
Awaking
Forgetting
Just where I was sleeping...
Reach out to
Move the curtain
For daylight.
VERSE II
Arising
And leaving
Inside, I
Am singing
These muses made me
And saved me.
VERSE III
Like water
I'm spilling
Yet, grateful
I'm still here
This year has
Aged me
Greatly.
VERSE IV
Same people
No reason
They come, and
She's leavin'...
Decide,
Forget the answer...
Forget her.
VERSE V
These friends are
In passing
Not sacred
Not lasting...
It's all detaching ...
Preparing.
VERSE VI
For Dayton,
Ohio
Muse give me
Asylum.
Pieces and guidance.
An exit.
VERSE VII
Politely
Declining.
Lyrics and music copyright 1999, 2003 Julian D. Rai (BMI), All Rights Reserved.
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Indie-folk / antifolk band spanning nearly 30 years and 12 live and studio releases, including the most recent "The War of the Sons of Light Against the Sons of Darkness", and are currently remastering several albums for re-release in 2023. Julean is known for his dynamic voice, passionate onstage vocal delivery, and a playing style that swings wildly from soft and subtle to fast and breakneck. ... more
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