Here. (European demo version)

by Julean and the Rai

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In album II of "The Muse" semi-autobiographical quasi-mythology, our main character moves into moods of love, the beginnings of darkness, and nostalgia at the fading content of his previous year in "The Muse Tree"; the tailwind of his childhood quickly waning in reflection. Written between the years of 1996 and 1997, this album also tells the semi-true stories of the songwriter in those moments; at least in part.

During the 2007 recording studio sessions for "Muse Tree", "Disconnect" and "Alexandria, Falling", Julean also managed to carve out what were intended to be demos for the following album, "A Wedding for Laura". In the final 10 days of the 40-day intensive lock-in period, the songs for the album were established; tracked in one or two takes each and meant to be listened to over the next year in preparation for a more focused session.

"...but when I heard just the raw and final mixes, I kind of felt like the album might be done, just as it is," Julean recollects. "I always wanted these earlier songs to sort of a mix between how I would have performed them in 1996 and how I would approach them now, and that's just what it was. It was also the most consistent album set of the entire session, song-by-song. and I wanted to be able to move on to focus on the 1998 songs, too. Plus, when I was going to Europe, I knew I'd be needing new material fast. So I just kept it, quickly mixed it down without mastering it, and released it."

"Here." was sold at concerts and at streetside, open-air performances in Europe by Julean between 2008 and 2010 and traveled widely thereafter, returning to U.S. audiences before he himself did in 2010. It was later professionally remastered and released as the U.S. album "Darlene" in 2011.

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released August 1, 2008

Engineering and performances by Julean Rai. Album photo by A. Urban. Lyrics and music (c) Copyright 1996, 2007 Julian Rai (BMI); Julean Rai (BMI); Julean and the Rai (BMI); All rights reserved.

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Julean and the Rai Denver, Colorado

Julean and the Rai is a genre blended, songwriting heavy, acoustic based indie folk quartet with a powerful lead singer and a wide range of sounds.

Founded in 2006 in NYC by frontman Julean Rai, Julean and the Rai pulls from influences from everywhere from prog rock legend Peter Gabriel to alt country songwriter John Hiatt, and bringing to mind musicians like Richie Havens and Ravi Shankar.
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Track Name: Darlene (E.U. Version)
Darlene
Lyrics From the LP "Darlene" (European Release: "Here.", 2008)
Lyrics and Music by Julean Rai


VERSE I
-------
Darlene...
You waited as long as they
Expected you.
Here's my apartment key.
The Day of Decision,
I've awaited you...
Just come in and
Wake me up.


Pre-Chorus I
-------
Still a little
Undecided?
Well, that's alright
Darlene.
And if you decide to go
That's alright Darlene
And if you never show
Still alright Darlene...
And if we decide to
Go through with things, that's
Surely alright--


VERSE II
-------
Darlene...
And everyone thinks that
You're the crazy child.
That's our little secret
I swear.
But we've played with the other
And the issue, now...
...and what a mighty-fine
Time it's been.


Pre-Chorus II
-------
Still a little
Undecided?
Well, that's alright
Darlene.
And if you decide to go
That's alright Darlene
And if you never show
Still alright Darlene...
And if we decide to
Go through with things, that's
Surely alright--


CHORUS
-------
We're going out in a
Blaze of Glory, I
See the folly in
Our Own Life Stories, and
If the moment escapes,
It will not let me down.

We're going out like a
Motion Picture, don't
Run away
Boogie-man'll get ya', and
If the moment, it fades
It will not let me down
It will not let me down.


BRIDGE
-------
I can hear you
Pacing down the halls...
Now...
Pulling it together
Like it's Now or Never...
Like it's Now or Never...
Just like it's Now or Never...
It's never Now or Never...
No, it's never Now or Never
Darlene.


VERSE III
-------
Darlene...
You steady yourself as
You climb in with me...
I pretended to be asleep.
You climb up on my shoulders
As you wake me
And I steady my eyelids to see


Pre-Chorus
-------
You're still a little
Shaky, darlin'?
Well
That's alright Darlene.
You got things to figure out?
Well, that's alright, Darlene.
You just wanna' mess around?
That's still alright, Darlene.
You're moving closer, now, and that's
Surely alright...


CHORUS
-------
We're going out in a
Blaze of Glory, I
See the folly in
Our Own Life Stories, and
If the moment escapes,
It will not let me down.

We're going out like a
Motion Picture, don't
Run away
Boogie-man'll get ya', and
If the moment, it fades
It will not let me down
It will not let me down.

We're going out in a
Blaze of Glory, I
See the folly in
Our Own Life Stories, and
If the moment degrades,
It will not let me down.

It will not let me down
It will not let me down
It will not let me down,
Darlene,

Copyright 1996, 2006 Julian D. Rai (BMI); Julean Rai (BMI); Julean and the Rai (BMI). All rights reserved.
Track Name: The Dance (E.U. Version)
The Dance
Lyrics From the LP "Darlene" (European Release: "Here.", 2008)
Lyrics and Music by Julean Rai

Star is the name
You took in the wake
Of the changes.

Patient, like sand
Reaching, like trust
For my hand.

Caught in a sway
Swaying, I've waited
For this dance.

Hoping anonymously
Glancing quite furtively
At you.

And there...
There has been nothing but air...
And now just the cold of your hair...
In the wake of your stare.

Oh, patient, I've been--
Star, we've got
Star, we've got
Nothing by time.
I have been keen for
This dance...
Here, in the shadows, and light...
Patiently, patiently--

And everyone's here
Watching us
Watching us
Move 'round the space
Gawd only knows
This is right...
...and maybe, now, you understand...

Then you took
Him to your
Room.


In a slow motion
Drinking it in,
Touching the warmth
Of your skin.

And maybe quite soon
Soon, we'll be further
Within you.

Follow, mysteriously
Furtively
Disappearing
Soon.

But I'm weak...
Weak from the ashes, and dust...
Now, just the portrait of us...
And the weight of your touch.

Oh, seriously--
Star, you'll have
Star, you'll have
Mountains of fame.
Time has just slowed
For this dance...
All will remember
Your name.
Seriously, seriously--

Everyone thinks
Gawd only
Gawd only
Knows what they think.
We're all alone
In this swoon...
This just may
Be our one chance...

Then you took
Him to your
Room.

Then you took
Him to your
Room.


Copyright 1996 Julian D. Rai (BMI); Julean Rai (BMI); Julean and the Rai (BMI). All rights reserved.
Track Name: Sin (E.U. Version)
Sin
Lyrics From the LP "Darlene" (European Release: "Here.", 2008)
Lyrics and Music by Julean Rai

VERSE:
Time...
Yeah, we're a waste of it.
This is a temporary thing
And there's the taste of it
All over you in the basement;
In the house of the lady
With the scar on her belly
And the red hair and the skirt.

I met you
By accident.
There was an epidemic of
That happening.
Yes, you were sensual
And cognizant...
And a break from the drama
Since Panana robbed me
Of my boy-ish good-ness...


CHORUS:
The Mona Lisa is "In"
I don't know where my drama went
I'm curling in the cold,
And I am spent
Underneath
Your grandmother's blanket
And here we go again...

VERSE:
Spread...
This time, traditional.
And I swear I'm not
The least bit cynical
Of the impractical,
Or the mystical
Or the cycles of my soul
Here we go, luv...


CHORUS:
The Mona Lisa is "In"
I don't know where my karma went
I'm curling in the cold,
And I am spent
Underneath
Your grandmother's blanket
And here we go again...


BRIDGE:
One-two-three-four
Hey what the hell are we waiting for, luv?
Lock the candles, light the door...
Let's not wake the landlord.

Lies...
And avarice...
Oh, and a few over-estimated
Friendships
Caused you to quit;
Return to the farm from whence you split--
And I was pissed.


CHORUS:
The Mona Lisa is "In"
I don't know where my drama went
I'm curling in the cold,
And I am spent
Underneath
Your grandmother's blanket
And here we go again...

What we do is sin
I can't tell you how long it's been
Stuck in the car with "The Freshman"
Signaled the beginning of the end.

Copyright 1996, 2006 Julian D. Rai (BMI); Julean Rai (BMI); Julean and the Rai (BMI). All rights reserved.
Track Name: Like This (E.U. Version)
Like This
Lyrics From the LP "Darlene" (European Release: "Here.", 2008)
Lyrics and Music by Julean Rai

Verse I
I don't want to remember this...
Can't you see the shape I'm in...
I don't want to remember you
Like this.

So much anger in my heart,
That I sing...

Verse II
You said we had forever, then...
You said it by the tree that day, you said
'Who needs a watch when we've got
Now', you said.

Well, maybe we've got 'now', you say...
But then again, you leave today.
Aw, anyway.

Chorus
And I held it down
As faithful as you were
To me I was
Missing the parts of you
I really never should have missed.
You're calling me a chicken-shit
And I don't know if I love you
But I know I don't
Like this.

Verse III
Well, you make 'LOVE' from a cigarette carton
(Cardboard and shapes)
And I cannot blame you, girl
(We all do these things)
'Cause everyone's got a "lucky"
(Everyone says)
Everyone gets lucky
(Smoke while you stand)
You stand in the doorway
By the screened-in porch, outside
When the lights are out.

Verse IV
Well, I'm--
Sitting on your Front Porch Swing
(Sitting on your Back Porch Swing)
And I--
I can tell you anything
(I can tell you anything)
If you could--
Lean a little closer,
(Lean a little closer...)
If you would--
Utilize my shoulder, and you're
You say it seems the Moon is full...
Can't say I believe this, but I know I
Don't like...

And I held it down
As faithful as you were
Faithless as it were
Missing the parts of you
I really never should have kissed.
You're calling me a chicken.
Don't know if I love you
But I know I don't
Like this.

Copyright 1996 Julian D. Rai (BMI); Julean Rai (BMI); Julean and the Rai (BMI). All rights reserved.
Track Name: Without the Kiss (E.U. Version)
Without the Kiss
Lyrics From the LP "Darlene" (European Release: "Here.", 2008)
Lyrics and Music by Julean Rai

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INTRO
Has Laura always been this strange?
But whay talk about the rainy days?

Verse I
Laura went outside
While I watched her go
Her parents packed the truck to leave, and
Just one more load to go...

Verse II
I found the premise frightening
I found my stubborness torn
Could you believe I was
Falling for you, love
With one more load to go...

Chorus
So pack your bags, it's time to leave
This old town, anyway, and
If and when you come back
I'll be well-along-my-way, and
To a new life 'cross the country
And it takes a time Like This
To remember what I felt
Without the Kiss?

Verse III
So I'm the stage and the scenery.
You're as real as it gets.
We were fools for never starting this
We were fools...

Chorus
So pack your bags, it's time to leave
This old town, anyway, and
If and when you come back
I'll be well-along-my-way, and
To a new life 'cross the country
And it takes a time Like This
To remember what I felt
Without the Kiss?

Verse IV
I Remember the Winter
And the Long Walk Home
And I rescheduled out time that sunday eve
With another girl, I believe...

...it was a quiet meal, I had to leave...

Chorus
So pack your bags, it's time to leave
This old town, anyway, and
If and when you come back
I'll be well-along-my-way, and
To a new life 'cross the country
And it takes a time Like This
To remember what I felt
To remember what I felt...
To remember what I felt
Without the Kiss.

Outro
Has summer always been this strange?
But why talk about the rainy days?
Yes, why talk about the rainy days?
So why talk about the rainy days?
Well, I talk about the rainy days.

Copyright 1996 Julian D. Rai (BMI); Julean Rai (BMI); Julean and the Rai (BMI). All rights reserved.s
Track Name: Down, the River Down (E.U. Version)
Down, the River Down
Lyrics From the LP "Darlene" (European Release: "Here.", 2008)
Lyrics and Music by Julean Rai

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Verse I
There was a stream.
I used to float sticks down there
When I was a boy
Staying at my grandparent's home.

Verse II
And I'd run with it --
-- like everybody else here does...
I'd have fun with it
And never have my troubles on.

Bridge I
And there I go again
Talking 'bout the days gone by...
But they're hoverin' right over me...
That little stick has sailed so long

Chorus
Down, the river down, down...
Down, the river down...

Verse III
Runs through this town.
Locking all the people in;
Freezing during wintertime.

Verse IV
And I've got my dreams --
-- like everybody else here does...
I've got Big Plans for me
I've got it all Worked Out.

Bridge II
And there I go again
Talking 'bout the yet to come...
But it's bearing right down on me...
And I'm feeling right at home

Chorus
Down, the river down
Down, the river down
Down, the river down
Down, the river down

Verse V
Don't know my friends.
And I guess I seem paranoid
But I've seen both sides of them.

Verse VI
They wear their masks --
-- like everybody else here does ...
They turn their truths around
And spit it out backwards-like

Bridge III
And there I go again
Pointing out the negative...
But it's pointing right back at me...
It's like they don't know Right from Wrong...

Chorus
Down, the river down
Down, the river down
Down, the river down
Down, the river down
Down, the river down, down...
Down, the river down.

Copyright 1996 Julian D. Rai (BMI); Julean Rai (BMI); Julean and the Rai (BMI). All rights reserved.s
Track Name: Flop House (E.U. Version)
Flop House
Lyrics From the LP "Darlene" (European Release: "Here.", 2008)
Lyrics and Music by Julean Rai

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Verse I
Jenny hits the floor, with a broom...
Landlord's gonna' be Here, soon...
With the City Man, and the Fire man, too...

Chorus
You see
We're all getting kicked out
Of our little Flop House.

Verse II
The sentence was for condemnation.
They left a notice on our front door screen...
(The neighborhood is up for changes.)

Chorus
So
We're all getting kicked out
Of our little Flop House.

Verse III
Wait...
...don't bother with the ashes.
...or the cans, or the dirt, or the broom--
Let's just throw a party and crash it.

Chorus
Because
We're all getting kicked out
Of our little Flop House--

Bridge
TAKE A PIECE OF WALL
AND TEAR IT DOWN...
HERE'S A HAMMER, HERE'S A SLEDGE
USE YOUR FEET...USE YOUR HANDS
AND TEAR IT DOWN
AND TEAR IT DOWN
RIP UP THE CARPETS
TAKE DOWN THE DOORS, NOW...
YEAH
AND JUST BURN IT
AND GRIND IT
AND TAKE IT
(AND KEEP IT)
DESTROY IT
DESTROY IT
THIS FLOP HOUSE WE COVET
THEY CAN'T HAVE IT
THEY CAN'T HAVE IT
DESTROY IT
DESTROY IT

AND TEAR IT DOWN...
JUST TEAR IT DOWN...

Verse IV
...in the only room that's left--
Landlord and the City Man 'aint here yet...
After these final cigarettes

Chorus
We're all getting kicked out
Of our little Flop House


We're all getting kicked out
Of our little Flop House

We're all getting kicked out
Of our little Flop House


We're all getting kicked out.

Copyright 1996 Julian D. Rai (BMI); Julean Rai (BMI); Julean and the Rai (BMI). All rights reserved.
Track Name: Mountains of Anastasia (E.U. Version)
Mountains of Anastasia
Lyrics From the LP "Darlene" (European Release: "Here.", 2008)
Lyrics and Music by Julean Rai

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Verse I
Cry a mountain
Bleed a river, yeah
Swimming in my own illusions
...didn't claim to know you, now did I?

Verse II
Falling I should
Know by now, I should
Dream of you, when I
Dream of flying
...but these things fetter with twists of

Bridge I
Fate
Is my favorite word
And lately
It's my just reward
I pace the middle ground
A lot more, and
Here's my fiddlestick

Verse III
You said nothing
You believed them
Now, did I seem a
Little too clingy to you?
Oh, these things fetter with

Verse IV
Time
We're talking
Fourty days, and
Fourty nights, many
Fights to go I didn't
Think you'd be moving on
I feel like questioning things like

Bridge II
Fate
Is my favorite word
And lately
It's been my just dessert
I pace the middle ground
A lot more, and
Here's my fiddlest--

Chorus
Well, I need
Nothing to guide me
Here in these Mountains
of Anastasia
Reguarding your brother
The hand of your lover
Know he's still bleeding
After the War...

Bridge III
Fate
Is my favorite word
And lately
It's my just reward
I pace the middle ground
A lot more, and
Here's my fiddlest-

Chorus II
Hell, I need
Nothing to guide me
Here in these Mountains
of Anastasia
Reguarding your brother
The hand of your lover
Know he's still bleeding
After the War,

And now he's reluctant
Taking your promise
And now he's detaching
To even the scrore
And he is not Angry
Yes, he is Rasputin
Here in the safety
Of Her Four Walls...

Verse V
Oh, it takes a lot
Just to give a bit
Now do you think of me
When you think of putting on
Your favorite song?

Copyright 1997 Julian D. Rai (BMI); Julean Rai (BMI); Julean and the Rai (BMI). All rights reserved.
Track Name: A Wedding for Laura (E.U. Version)
A Wedding for Laura
Lyrics From the LP "Darlene" (European Release: "Here.", 2008)
Lyrics and Music by Julean Rai

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Verse I
She can't find the feeling again
As she puts on her face
Straightens her hair
Loosens her walk
Monitors her talk
And cries in her bed when there's no one
To laugh along

Verse II
And this was something she said
To only chosen few
And then it takes a few beers...
...emotionless You
To learn to stand upright
But we talked all night
Seemingly to laugh at ourselves
As the dawn wore on...

Bridge
...and in that little time
could you fall in love
without ever wanting to?

...and in that little time
could we fill it up?
Would she fall in love with you?

Like say "I do"...

Chorus I
...
And I remember the winter
Remember your voice
As we lay on our sides
The letters I'd write
That I don't intend to send her...

Laura
Emotionless You
Lying motionless, to you

Verse III
I guess I won't see her again
And then I'll never find Reason
To miss her at all
But would she stand to watch me fall?
(Or do nothing at all...
...but look in these eyes for some Reason
for all of this?)

Verse IV
And where was the kiss?
And where was the Justice?
And where was My Logic?
When I know how she feels?
When faultless, she stands
And thoughtless, she gazes
High up on that hill...
...is that a mansion in mazes?

Bridge
...and in that little time
could you fall in love
without ever wanting to?

...and in that little time
could we fill it up?
Would she fall in love with you?

Like say "I do"...

horus
...
And I remember the winter
Remember your voice
As we lay on our sides
The letters I'd write
That are marked 'Return to Sender'...

Laura
Emotionless You
Lying motionless, to you


Copyright 1996 Julian D. Rai (BMI); Julean Rai (BMI); Julean and the Rai (BMI). All rights reserved.s
Track Name: Here. (E.U. Version)
Here.
Lyrics From the LP "Darlene" (European Release: "Here.", 2008)
Lyrics and Music by Julean Rai

---

Here.
Many logical reasons to stay.
There,
Where nothing but ghosts may remain.
There is a hint of nostalgia
On everything that you know
And everyplace that you go to
Here.

Here.
A recording of things that we said
There,
Where we waited for school to begin--
It was mostly Ifs, Ands, and Buts...
Yeah, it was pretty absurd...
How we tarried, and carried on
Here.


Chorus
---
We were the silhouettes of patriots
Plotting 'gainst the time.
Up against our parents,
Up against the sky.
We were the AXIS of the SIDEREAL
In our moment, and our time
Here.

Verse II
---
Here.
Is the place that we gathered upon.
There,
Where the city was hiding her young.
Below the lights of the faded
Things were never so clear
Now, there are nothing but shadows down
Here.

Here.
Is the rooftop I carried you on.
There,
With the pomenade thriving below.
You were august and lovely
I was boyish and young
These are the moments that time forgot
Here.

Chorus II
---
Ah, ghosts and reservations
Memories of things
Of failures and of friendshipts
Although nothing much remains
Of the fear and trepidation
Of the carelessness of things
Of the riverside apartment
Of the strength of mind, intact
And of the images of those
Who are never coming back
Here.

Verse III
---

Here.
Many logical reasons to stay.
There,
Where nothing but hope can remain.
There is nothing like Fear
To keep your feet planted
Standing where you fear
Here.

...

Yes there is nothing like fear
To catch you red-handed
Standing where you fear
Here.
Here.
Here.
Here.


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